No Buy Year

I've just heard of a "No Buy Year" and thought I ought to try it out and see what I come up with.

The rules are simple and a bit complicated.
No buying things. No books, no movies, no morning coffee (if you have a working coffee maker that's collecting dust, time to step up), no apps, no new supplies... you get the idea. The point is to use up what you've got (for someone like me, this will be difficult, yet I have SO much stuff to use up).

Except for:
  • Living expenses (food, bills, rent, etc)
  • Transportation (gas/petrol or a bus pass)*
  • Replacements (like toothpaste, shampoo, cleaning supplies, and anything used up beyond repair)
  • Maintenance and repair (when you can't DIY).
  • Health (maintenance, improvement, and preventative)**
  • Experiences and Education***
  • Gifts for others

*for transportation, I'm going to avoid services like Uber or Lyft (unless Lyft gives me a promo and I'm caught in the rain, which has happened before, but Lyft almost never gives out promos)

**Gym memberships count here, too. Or anything that gets you moving, like a bike-share service or investing in your own equipment (but no buying new workout attire unless you're replacing your worn out attire, unless it's safety equipment you don't have, like a mouth guard for sparring or flip-flops for public showers).

***For education and experiences, there's a wide range of things you can do. You can take classes around town, go to museums, travel abroad, go on a vacation, go to Laser Tag (also might count as exercise), attend a workshop... My next scheduled experience is going to be in an Escape Room!

You're supposed to downsize, as well - bring things down to one or two; simplify things and focus on sustainability, especially during replacement, but use things up completely before replacing things. For instance, if you have ten eyeshadow palettes, bring it down to one or two that you use most often (I donate all my unwanted-but-still-good makeup and clothes to a queer clothing exchange). Only when you're finished can you replace it with a new/better/different one. If you see a new lotion you want to try, you can't get it until you've used up your current lotion.

Secondary exception list should be based on personal value. My secondary exceptions are:

  • Social beverages/treats with friends (I don't have a big social life, so I'm not going to miss out when I get the chance).
  • Repair items to DIY (only if I can't borrow, and only if I know I'll definitely use it again).
  • Quest items (things I've been trying to find for a very long time, though I can't think of anything at the moment)
  • Pre-determined project/investment purchases (things I couldn't previously afford, such as SSD for my computer, RAM for my laptop, or swimming headphones would count as investments, and project material I haven't bought due to poor time management on my part or affordability for projects I've already planned out are pre-determined).
  • Conventions (these could count as experience buys, but cons are notorious money-suckers, and I will consider them birthday presents to myself, as I only go to one or two a year).
  • Support (things like charities, a friend's patreon, kickstarter, or commissions, but no more buying into large-scale kickstarters)
  • Booth fees (because I'm still breaking into my art/zines booth stuff after retiring the jewelry biz a couple years ago)

I'm using January as a buffer period, since I started some new hobbies that need a bit of start-up spending (Charles got me a Cricut for xmas, and holy crap, it comes with jack shit, and you have to buy all their expensive-ass add-on stuff to use it; and I joined a new gym with a pool, so had to buy flip-flops and a locker lock), plus I have my last ever comic book stash to buy from my guy before giving up buying individual comics.
Tank Girl - Introduce Myself


I don't know why I did, but I renewed my LJ paid membership even after my old credit card got denied at first. I think I did it just for the icons, which is stupid. But I love my icons. Maybe I'll just pop 'em all in a folder and just post 'em here instead. I haven't made a post here since January. Not a public one, anyway.
(and I've just saved the icons and canceled auto-renew)

Seems LiveJournal has once again died out, and I honestly doubt it'll be coming back to life again, which is kind of a bummer, since it's kind of the only community-based social media full blogging site, isn't it? If there's another really popular long-form blog, community-based social media site out there, let me know! Meanwhile, I think Januarys are when people come back to try to renew the spirit, so I might post my alternate social media then, too. I actually made a new LJ account back at the beginning of the year (fawndolyn) which I use exclusively to blog about my life, in French (to practice the language, which is a bit of a fun hassle, given that I've been learning French through European AND Canadian means, so there's occasionally a mix of both in there).

That aside, the places around the internet that you can find me are:

Instagram: @fawndolyn (that's for my creative exploration. I've just this week created a new one for personal use - @fawnicus ).

Facebook: I have three 'like' pages: Fawndolyn Art, where I put my artwork, and I Forgot Why I Thought This Would Be Fun, which is a work in progress, but is the site for my zines.
Then there's a shit-posting meme page I contribute to with my friend Dextra, Chocolate in my Cleavage.

And my website, which is just a portfolio that I update quarterly.

That's pretty much it.

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Todd - Shit Rooster

The Friends Only Post (edit: hasn't been f-o in a while, though)

I don't like to lock my journal, but apparently need to, and I don't like exclusive Friends-Only journals with no public posts to sample what I might possibly be adding, so to give you an idea of the stuff I write about, I've left some entries unlocked. Comment to be *possibly* added back (there's a reason I had to lock this journal).
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    annoyed annoyed
Life is Strange - photo

Start Again

I ended 2018 gorging myself among friends and ending a 3-month garbage-food binge. We talked about our favourite events attended and concerts seen in the year (my answers were Nightwish, TIFF, and Emmett Otter's Live Jug Band (official soundtrack release party)). I asked about everyone's goals (what's one thing you want to accomplish this year?). I enjoyed the personal conversations it induced, but wish I'd not saved it til the end of the night when most people had left.

I have been making strides in my last-minute to-do list, which is a list of all the little shit I've been wanting to get done before 2019 hits. I don't actually count January 1st, because my vacation ends the next day, so I have one more day to get my shit together. One of the things on that list was to get my email inbox down to zero, which I did, and no sooner did it fill with actually valuable stuff.

Aside from the first email I'd gotten, involving my student loans (which I finally made the first steps into getting started), I got an email from WallByrd - the theater company I greatly enjoy and admire, and that I've been trying to get involved with since 2016. In late summer, they finally put an open call to people who want to audition for this season, including requests for crew assistance. Ron and I went in (he for an audition, I for crew). Neither of us heard back, and assumed we weren't wanted. I was surprised they didn't want Ron - he's a fantastic actor and huge supporter of WallByrd, but I was heartbroken that they didn't want me, as the director and assistants had expressed wanting my help when offered in person.

And I mean, I went beyond heartbroken and into full existential crisis, because during a particularly moody cycle, I lamented not fitting in with my friends, because I'm not this and I'm not that, and I don't fit into any group. Ron's group, in particular, who were all involved with RIT (best I had was squatting there during my homeless saga), or music (best I have is a collection of instruments, none of which I can play yet with confidence), or sign language (I'm slowly losing my hearing and have no one to learn/practice with). And performance - and here's where WallByrd lands. I have been called upon for the occasional extra role, sfx consultant, voice-over, or DP, but have never had any kind of IN with that kind of gig, and applying to WallByrd was going to be my way to fit in somehow. It didn't come. Not until the last minute, long after I'd given up ever being in that world. And now I don't know how to feel about it. Maybe I'll feel excited when I can finally volunteer.

But it will definitely get me walking again - WallByrd's studio is a 20 minute walk away.

I also ended my craft jewelry business at the beginning of December in order to focus on my art. It was my most popular boothing experience, but I'm glad to see it go.

I do have resolutions, and I intend to fail at all of them in due time, but if I want to keep them, I should probably go month-by-month instead.

My plan for January is to keep getting shit together (finishing the unfinished and getting into new habits, or getting back into old habits.

1) Finish the temperature blanket I started one year ago. I'm just about done with August and should be able to finish it in a month or so if I knock out a month's worth every week. That might run til February, realistically. It was too hot to crochet over the summer.

2) Make reusable items in a further attempt to reduce my carbon footprint. I got a compost bucket from the Community Compost group and have started being diligent in recycling. Last year, we switched from plastic containers to glass. My next steps are to make mesh produce bags, washable cotton makeup wipes, and beeswax wraps. If you know any other environmentally-friendly steps, please share (note: while I recognize going vegan as a step in reducing my carbon footprint, it is not a realistic option for me due to health and money reasons).

3) The diet-and-exercise plan. I won't bore you with my diet plan. But I do want to mention that I spent the last three months on a binge, from various birthday and Halloween events in October, to THREE Thanksgiving feasts in November, and then a general disregard for paying attention to my health in December, because at that point, fuck it. I accidentally said YES to having a whole bag of my favourite homemade cookies set aside for me tonight, so I eventually tried to eat them all in one sitting because I knew tomorrow I'd be kicking the carbs again. Fuck, I didn't even get a donut. I got an egg-cooker for x-mas, and I'm kinda stoked to use it now.

Anyway, diet aside, I think I've found a plan to start slow on the exercise (while I get back on track with my eating habits) AND knock out some other necessities, which is to pick a couple of cafes in walking distance, but still a distance. I'll pack a bag filled with that afternoon's project (reading, art, writing, needlepoint, whatever) and I'll have a cup of tea while I work on the project, then walk home. I never get walking into my day because I hate going on pointless strolls, but I think if I'm motivated to go to somewhere and do something, it'll help.

4) Finish A Series of Unfortunate Events - this one's actually kind of immediate. I wanted to have the last three books read before January 1st, as that's the day the final season of the show comes out on Netflix, but I have one more to go. I almost don't want it to end, but I can't leave my mind only to the Penultimate ending.

5) Another purge of stuff for donation. I'd ideally like to go through my whole house, but it's not gonna happen in a month.

6) Finally write to Keenan, who I haven't responded to since the summer due to business. Well... busy-ness.

My hopes for the rest of the year are also in no particular order.

Fill a sketchbook per month and get some useful things from them (zines, ideas for bigger art pieces, comics...). I've started preparing for this by getting together all my blank and mostly-empty sketchbooks and covering them the fuck with stickers.

(interjection: speaking of covering things with stickers, I bought myself a regular old, but brand new laptop (a PC - because most of my customer demographic uses them and want to learn how to do things, and I have sure learned a lot) and I'm pretty stoked about it, and just wanted to share).

Learn a bit of music theory (I have many instruments, as stated earlier, but I think without music theory under my grasp of understanding, it's a bit rough to keep anything I've learned about them.
By the way, I bought myself a bass guitar (and amp)!! I'm very excited to learn some tunes.

Learn a 3D program (for 3D printing) and learn to animate (in ToonBoom). I got a big, professional Cintiq (coveted by many digital artists and animators) for my birthday and want to get to using it for evil. I mean, for animation.

Read all the Discworld books. This would be pretty straight-forward, but I actually intend to maximize my multi-tasking by using the audio books instead. There are a LOT of those books!

Booth with my art at least once. I have already been rejected once. I'm hoping to get into at least one convention, and while Utica's pop culture convention was nice, it was attended instead of going to an annual picnic I love, and I don't want to miss it again.

Post only personal shit to my Facebook. No more idly hitting "share." And I guess, use my Instagram more often. Oh, and make videos (not animated, but like, time-lapse work of my art) and post them on YouTube. I tried the Twitch streaming thing, but it is kinda fruitless.

That's enough to get started.

I don't want to do a year's end recap this year, but here's a year's end ART recap:

Starting with the best piece first, and then, cut.

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No wait... I want to make a few honorable mentions instead of a full recap.
2018's high points included the season of concerts (including sneaking pass the guards to get up front at Nightwish), getting a new tattoo, going to Toronto and running into Ron during Toronto International Film Festival (and having breakfast with him each morning at my favourite brekkie place), boothing my artwork for the first time, scooting away to NYC for a day and scoring a pass to NYCC so I could meet one of my friends/heroes in person for the first time, and going to Doc Hammer's gallery opening and networking with a lot of cool people.

I hope the next year will be minimally invasive and mostly pleasurable.
  • Current Music
    Coming Home (Major Tom) by Peter Schilling


Finally did my full rounds of updates (shop, site, and facebook, et - cetera), and am ready to post my first booth experience as an artist.

I'm happy to report it was a success! I didn't do as well as I thought I would, but better than I expected, if that makes sense. I was honestly worried they'd forgotten about saying I could booth with them and would be turned away. Stupid shit goes through my head in the moments before a big event. Every time. But I did okay. I made my booth fee back, and doubled it (almost exactly). And I met a couple of cool artists who bought my stuff (and I bought from them, too).

The attendees were teenage nerds with no volume control when they speak with any amount of excitement. That's to be expected with any pop culture convention (though I still forget how annoying that is, jeezus). Loads of smaller kids, too. A nearby booth had a video game setup playing the arcade version of Duck Hunt. Television was pointed right at the side of my booth, causing not only a crowd of kiddies blocking a walkway, but also caused these annoying kids backing right into and behind my booth! Thankfully, I, along with others, convinced the guy to set up in a different direction (and figured out a place completely out of the way, later on). I had one kid point at a picture and ask if it's a devil, cuz it was an angry picture and it creeped him out. Kid? You're beggin' for a backhand. Get outta my booth.

The older kids were great. Aside from some really kickass cosplay (my favourite of which was dressed as 'Dead' Lars from Steven Universe, and I eventually gave them a free Steven Universe print of mine because I loved their costume so much), there were a couple of folks who really appreciated some of my very understated drawings - one, a noted special-guest cosplayer commented on my Gene Wilder marker piece, and another who absolutely gushed upon seeing my A Girl Walks Home Alone At Night print. She eventually came back and bought it, too, along with the 'devil' one. So I'm really glad I can be praised for more than just super pop culture fan art, but more obscure stuff, too (I know Gene Wilder isn't obscure for adults, but for kids, he sure is).

What really surprised me was getting sketch commissions! I've heard tales of artists being asked to draw a sketch on the spot (and have often asked Jeph Jacques to do sketches). The difference is I usually take all day to do a drawing I'm totally satisfied with, so upon these surprise requests, I made sure they knew these would be sketches. They were happy with them, and when they asked the price, I said $2, and got a $3 tip from the second :)

I'm pretty satisfied with my stock, and do not think I overdid it on the variety (I had zines, cards, mini comics, stickers, pins, and prints. And a free bookmark to whoever bought a zine).

It was really nice, overall. Utica is a hole of a city, but there were some cool little gems here and there. After the convention, Charles found an experimental sound and video show. I paid his way in and he went and made new friends and connections, while I slept like a rock in the car. There is a statue of a woman with her arm out and she just looks in disbelief of the state of the city (and I drew her).

I needed that sleep (as depicted in the picture from the last post).

  • Current Music
    Jack Stauber - HiLo (album)

Busy Work

I'm cracking down on my free time, trying to get as much merch prepared for Fandemicon as I can. As of this week, I've got five new prints, four new zines, and a huge list of things I still need to make and prepare.

On top of that, I decided to keep myself on track by starting a Twitch stream!! I think it'll help keep me going throughout the week (preparing and making sure I have SOMETHING to work on, rather than slug around the house). I even bought a new webcam. I've learned so much about streaming live online. The program I use to stream is called OBS (open broadcast system) and I've figured out how to personalize and design the screen(s), get a chat stream going on it, and video, and have figured out how to stream my iPad onto it (very useful, as I didn't have a well-functioning camera to work on desktop art yet).
I settled on a schedule: Mondays and Thursdays at 5pm. Generally for an hour, but really for however long I decide to go.
Last Monday, I had to keep it down to an hour and get ready to go see Japanese Breakfast at the Bug Jar (I made it a grand total of 40 minutes before their zero-circulation band-room got too hot for me to handle, and I spent the rest of the night on my ipad in the bar area, eating free pizza).
Thursday, I decided that watching me draw details of comic panels while listening to chill tunes was really really boring, so I opted to also stream a brilliant and underrated movie (Jesus Christ Vampire Hunter). I have to prepare for stream tomorrow (got the new camera in the mail on Friday).

I've also had large chunks of many days taken by phone calls to both PayPal (who fucked me hard with my former bank) and my bank. I mean, hours each call. It was exhausting. But one month later (this all started after returning from NYC) and things look like they should be settled at long last by next weekend.

Other busy work includes fitting time to hang out with Sam & Troy, Ron, and figuring out the perfect balance of work and play (to keep from going insane). This week has been particularly hard, because my period has decided it doesn't want to play nice with my narcolepsy and I've been either knocked out or struggling against being knocked out during this extra long period. Fuck you, uterus. Play nice. Meeting up with people is extremely hard for me because most of my friends are active at night when my meds are wearing off for the night, and thus, making me too tired to go out and do much.

On the upside, this weekend was lovely. Friday, I got to see the Hi-Risers (with Trevor Lake on drums), and a new surfer-rock band from Toronto, the Surfrajettes! And the one night of their tour that they'll be in Toronto will be the same night I'll be there! So I am going to see them again! Their drummer is from Rochester. So cool! I invited Ron, who will also coincidentally be in Toronto that night, but he'll be busy with TIFF (Toronto International Film Festival). We do wanna meet up to get some Indian food at this place he likes, though :) Pretty stoked.
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Tank Girl - Introduce Myself

March Update: The Good, the Bad, the AWESOME, and the Ugly. Not in that order.

This isn't going to be my standard form updates with things I'm reading, hearing, watching, etc... Just because there's a lot that I had going on this month, and at the same time, nothing, and it's not going to fit all neat and tidy.

The Quick and Not-So Shitty
Due to the Depression Management Experiments, I fucked up a lot of things this month, but also came out the other end okay (I hope). I had my doctor's appointment yesterday, and we discussed the horrors of the Effexor, and landed on the decision to go with Adderall. *CONFETTI TOSS* !!!

I missed the deadline for a big project I've been working on, but hopefully, my old art teacher will let it slide (it's for a school comic anthology). I'm almost done with it and will scoot it off to him with an apology email by tonight. It's the first comic I've done entirely digitally, and I'm really glad I went that way with it, because I've been wanting to do more comic work, and more digital work, and they seem to fit really well together. I want to start a regular comic, and I did set up a tumblr for a place to put anything I make, but I'm still working on naming it (currently, it's called "I forgot why I thought this would be fun").
(edit: comic accepted! View on my FB Like page!)

I gotta remember to set up a mammogram and dermatology appointment. Because the Effexor ramped up my narcolepsy, I slept through a very hard-to-get dermatology appointment. Pretty pissed at myself for that, but I gotta turn it around. Real terrified of the mamm....

I finally have a boxing station set up in my attic! I spent a whole week preparing it for this. Thankfully, I organized and minimized what's up there a couple years ago and didn't have to shuffle around too much stuff. I did however, have to shop-vac the shit out of the place, and in every crevice. That brand new baby shop vac was shot on day one. Twice. Still waiting for it to be nice enough outside to clean the filter. Last summer, we got a new roof, and the fallout was pretty severe up there. I also mopped as much as I could before I had to leave for a dinner date, and I used a method I learned from painting (two buckets of water, one to rinse the filth off, and one to rinse the filth water off, and it really worked well). I also made a big bulletin board with a couple routines mapped out. I finished the station just in time for the weather to turn to such shit that I had my first bout of seasonal depression in a few years. The crap meds didn't help matters. The Happy-Lite helped, but not enough to actually start the routine. Hopefully the new meds will help.

(edit: finally got my first workout this morning!! Started an hour late, but I made it! Woo!)

Gotta remember to take a picture of the setup. I'm pretty proud of it now :)

Diet crap
Because of all the dinner dates and the worst PMS cravings I've had in years, I've decided to fuck off my keto diet and indulge for the rest of the month (edit: I started this post last week at work - continuing this morning at work). Every single food I've ever missed in my entire life from whatever diet I was ever on, I listed to Ch. when he was at the grocery. Oh my god, I want a donut. OH MY GOD, I FORGOT ABOUT ENGLISH MUFFINS. HOLY SHIT PASTA!! I bought a box of popcorn for the first time in 3 years. I'm going to have a grilled cheese sandwich and a peanut butter and fluff sandwich before I go back to my standard way of eating. I gotta find someone who has fluff, because if I buy it for myself with just a couple days left on my fuck-it diet, I'm gonna wanna eat the whole thing before I go back just so I don't waste food... Easter party is gonna be delicious. I can't wait. I'm gonna eat all the peeps. That's right. I'm that far gone off the deep end. Thanks, uterus. (edit: also ate 2 boxes of Girl Scout cookies in 2 days).

Then had the worst period I've had in years. Caving into those cravings came to a head on the first day, when I had such debilitating cramps, that I was up at 9 on Saturday morning, had about an hour to come to terms with getting my period the day before a big event, then fell into so much pain that I passed out til 4pm. I blame the binge because a lot of junk food here contains soy, and I'm very sensitive to soy and it does negatively affect my period.

Easter dinner date marked the last day of my binge. I am now going back to hardcore keto with intermittent fasting.


Real quick, I want to recap seeing Nightwish with Ch. They were amazing, and I even saw one of my college friends there. Her fiance is a die-hard fan of theirs, and I said, I'll have to get you up front! The front section was guarded, but not heavily - not at the beginning of the night. At one point, I noticed the guard was gone completely, and I remarked about it, and walked right through the entrance into the front of the audience! I looked back and saw that my friends chickened out and got a message from K. that said "I can't believe you did that! Don't turn back! I'll be disappointed in you if you come back from the front! You're pretty much my hero right now!" I spent the whole of the buildup texting Ch. a plan to get everyone up front, because the guards did double up at the entrance at that point, but alas, no one had the guts. I got some great pictures, though! Also got a pick from the guitarist! I felt bad that the K's die-hard bf didn't get up front, so I mailed it to them as a wedding gift.

My favourite theatre company, WallByrd Theater Co is currently running The Taming of the Shrew with a circus theme, and I saw it with R. and Ch. I love that they do this and the past two shows I've attended, I've dressed in "cast-play," as the cast members have called it. I dress for the theme of the show. The director always shows me appreciation for it, and this time, I even got to be involved in the show!

The pre-show had a juggler from the RIT Juggler's Association and he called up a volunteer. I shot my hand up the second I sensed any hesitation from the audience and went up on stage. We juggled (note: I have no juggling skills - I just did what he told me to do, and it just worked out) and he called up another volunteer and we all juggled (I was better ;) ). I had a lot of fun!

At the beginning of Act II, the supporting cast came out in masks and brooms and danced as they swept up the confetti + popcorn mess from the last scene. At one point, one of the actors held a hand out to me and beckoned me to dance and we did, then he handed me the broom and I laughed about it, but danced and swept (really glad I got to do this, because they didn't touch the stage stairs and it bugged me, so I swept the stuff off them). Then another member beckoned Ch. to stand from his seat, step back, sit in the seat behind us, and he sat down next to me in his place for a whole scene! Loved that guy, too.

This is the most clever theatre company I've ever had the pleasure of experiencing. They even integrated a replacement performer into the show in a unique way. The original Tranio was supposed to be played by Jess [surname forgotten], but they got into a car accident and was in recovery for a week. Sean [shit, I forgot his last name, but I knew it...], who I knew as the director from a couple of movie projects I performed in, came up on stage with his buddy as another volunteer in the opening pre-show, right after I left the stage. The juggler said he'd be right back, he's gotta grab the chainsaw. The two guys were left on stage alone, just checking out the props and taking selfies with them - one prop was a bottle, and they selfie'd pretending to drink from it, and then they broke the bottle, shattered across the stage by accident. People came up on stage to sweep it up, and the guys high-tailed it out of there, but were stopped by cast members. When the play opened with those two, they were in makeshift last-second costumes, shoddy makeup, and signs hanging around their necks with their character names on them, poorly reading lines from the script, while other cast members held up signs that summarized what they were reading, including a sign that said this is what happens as punishment for those who break the props! They talk with each other between lines ("come on, man, let's just get the hell out of here!") and add commentary to the lines ("pfft, dude, this is ridiculous, I'm not calling you my master!") and when the Minola family comes out with the rest of the cast, they hide off to the side and watch - Bianca and Kate get introduced, and Sean's buddy falls in love and immediately into character, while Sean is trying to get him to snap out of it, saying he can talk to her after the show like a normal person instead of "forsoothing" his love for her in front of everyone in the audience. When the plot calls for them to switch clothes, Sean starts slowly getting into character, to his own surprise, but as the understudy, still carries around the script.
They even found a way to integrate cell phones subtly into the show with these two characters.

And look at me gushing about this show. It's seriously my favourite theatre company. Last time I gushed about the show, my quote went up on their website (not complaining! It's a pretty big honor for me). I've wanted to get involved with them for some time now, but this time around, they worked from a different location (than the one down the street from me) and I couldn't make it to their studio. I did at least drop a friend's name to the director who said she was interested in doing a musical with screaming punk, but she didn't think there were such voices in Rochester - I dropped my friend Will's name and association, saying he's pretty much the face of the Rochester punk scene and has a lot of connections. I hope something comes of it.

Meanwhile, I'll be seeing the performance again on Saturday with R. and will hopefully have another costume :)

Now that I finally finished that damn graphic novel Something New (by Lucy Knisley), I am going to finally break into my list of French books before going back to English books.

I feel really good about this morning's workout, and I really want to keep it up in the mornings - preferably an hour earlier! That's gonna take some getting used to. And of course, diet will go back to normal. I'm really glad I'm over that binge. I felt guilty a couple of times during it, but I feel good looking back. I just feel good right now in general, and I feel good about the future of the fatty.

Putting aside some time to get that comic into motion. I've already started a 2-page about an incident of micro sexual harassment that happened to me last week. I'm really excited to get into digital comics.

It's April, and that means the Wall of Concerts is fast-approaching! I count Nightwish as the official kickoff. This month, it's My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult, They Might Be Giants, The Mountain Goats, and Ministry! Then in June or July, Japanese Breakfast is returning to Rochester. Super stoked about that! They were my favourite discovery of last year.

Also listing my Lightning print, because the editor of that book never finished paying me for it, even though I know her company is raking it in right now. So I'm calling it mine for the taking. The book says the copyright covers everything in the book, but since I was never fully paid for the work, I'm keeping that one. Fuck it. Come at me.

Oh, and for the immediate future, getting my website back up! There was a mishap regarding the hosting payment (on Ch's end of things) and our websites got deleted and purged!!! Good thing I [am pretty sure I] backed that shit up! Holy shit.

Phew. That's it, I think!

February Update

It's a little early for another monthly update (and I've been trying to get time to update for about a week now, so it was bound to be either early or earlier). February is crawling. It might be because so much crap is going down at work all the time (absences, short-staffed, broken systems, and needing to work late because of it all), or because Ch's father has been at death's door this whole month, or as I stated in an earlier post, a lot of calls and texts are just weighing me down for some reason.

After my last post, you might wonder (if you notice. If your layout lets you notice) why this entry is left unlocked. It's just because I hate having to lock my journal, and I feel like these generalized monthly updates where I tell you what I'm doing in basic list-y terms are something I can keep unlocked. For the occasional Friending Frenzy - I like to be able to see a sampling of what I'll be reading when I add people, and like to give the same courtesy (by the way, if there are any friending frenzies going on, please let me know!).

On with the list.

What I'm Reading
  • Something New, by Lucy Knisley - it's a little difficult to read more than a couple chapters at a time, not because it isn't good, but because it's hard to relate to (and it's a thick book, so it's a little difficult to hold properly while in bed without causing stress to my wrists).

  • Shiver, by Junji Ito - I've long admired Junji Ito's artwork, and finally purchased two of his books. This one is a book of short stories.

  • INFODUMP - I discovered Julian Simpson's blog through Warren Ellis's weekly newsletter where he linked this article: Five ways to instantly improve blah blah your productivity blah - a topic I generally fall for, and just enough sass to keep me hooked. I have since signed up for his newsletter.

  • Asian Efficiency - a blog site I learned about from INFODUMP that gives great advice on getting and keeping organized and using one's time efficiently. Already proven useful as hell over this past week and weekend.

    What I'm Reading Next
  • Uzumaki, by Junji Ito (the other book of his I bought). Added to the list from last month's blog, which sadly hasn't changed.

    What I'm Listening To
  • Ryan Flynn, who I saw while on a date at Boulder a few weeks ago. His music is very Moog-y (being that he used a Moog in his performance) and sort of like, spacey, electric dreams, with a touch of funk. I fell instantly in love with the sound and bought his CD - a home-pressed scratchy thing, but ripped to my iTunes flawlessly. The album I bought is Wild Life, which you can hear on his Bandcamp.

  • It Makes a Sound - I put off listening to this podcast after two episodes, but while catching up on chores on Saturday, decided to binge the rest of the season. It got surprisingly good, and had fun, beautiful music.

  • The Walk - which used to be an exercise app made by the folks who brought you Zombies, Run!, now runs as a podcast, and honestly, it's a lot better. There are no stops in the action and dialog, and you don't have to actively keep an eye on the app's map to play it (that really put a shitter on the exercise part, not to mention it didn't play music between clips).

    What I'm Watching
  • The Magicians - finally caught up!
  • Archer - not caught up
  • Black Mirror - tried last night, kinda over it.

    What I'm Playing
  • Submerged - holy shit, it's beautiful. A simple premise with a lovely and sad story.

    What I'm Doing
  • Trying to get organized. Spent the better part of last week remotely accessing my home computer from work so I could organize all my files, and finally finished Saturday afternoon.

  • Being there for Ch in his grief, as his father finally left us on Monday afternoon.

  • Getting minorly involved in a play - saw R perform in The Royal Family, and donated two items of jewelry to the show - a pair of earrings and a pendant, worn by the lead actress in the 3rd act. I do hope I get those back (might have done well to remind him last night, as I think it was the last performance). I saw it opening night, gave him the jewelry the next day, and then I saw it a second time a week later and she wasn't wearing the pendant (the chain broke just before the scene)! Just my luck.

  • Making music mixes! Just made a mix CD for R, and then made a Valentine's Day mix (love and lament songs) on Spotify, which you can hear here: [link]

  • Making a dent in my lists. This is part of me getting organized. I finally did things I'd been putting off for months. I registered to mychart (doctor-related), I scanned my prison friend's art, I finished (rushed) a copic marker piece, I cleaned the living room (holy crap, did I ever, and it's so nice), caught up on podcasts, and did my taxes (found out my second job didn't withhold federal, so I had to pay a bit - thanks, savings). Trying to set up an IDR with my student loans, but they keep pulling from my 2016 taxes instead of 2017 - might have to wait for them to be fully accepted.

  • Trying MyFitnessPal again - R has been tracking his meals with it, and it's really improved since I last attempted. R has been a good person I can chat with about my diet, and is really supportive of me :)

    What I'm Thinking
  • I don't think the Wellbutrin is good for me. It's been a month and I haven't felt anything. I've refilled my 'script because I've heard from multiple sources that a month isn't long enough to work it into my system. It sucks, because I've just noticed that I'm clumsier, more exhausted, and less focused. Not to mention, not feeling a ramped up metabolism, as listed in the side effects, and thus not losing any weight, except what I'm doing with my standard diet (still keto). I have an appointment with the doctor this week, and I'll discuss it with her then.
    • Current Music
      Just Like a Movie Star - The 6ths
    Tank Girl - Smoke

    General Update - January

    I need to make dumb updates like this around once a month. I haven't been up for blogging properly in a while. But I'm due for one. For now, here's some basics.

    What I'm Reading
  • A Wrinkle in Time, by Madeleine L'Engle - first time reading it since I was in 3rd grade, and it really holds up so far. I should have read it within a week, but I've been extremely distracted.

  • Something New, by Lucy Knisley - Her biggest graphic novel yet. Interesting read, despite how I've felt a little disconnected from her work lately.

  • Battle Royale, by Koushun Takami - because I always am. Always. I've been reading this for about 5 years now.

    What I'm Reading Next (in no particular order)

  • The Left Hand of Darkness, by Ursula K. LeGuin - because I've never read any of her novels, only a small number of short stories. I have been meaning to pick up a book of hers, and I never know where to start (nor remember which titles have been suggested to me.

  • Easy Eats: A Bee and PuppyCat Cookbook, by Natasha Allegri - beautiful recipes

  • Adventure Time: The Official Cookbook, by Jordan Grosser - simple recipes

  • I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream, by Harlan Ellison - short stories.

  • Catharsis, by Luz - suggested on Goodreads by pax_athena, so I must read it. Also the first of this year's French books I'm expecting to work through.

  • Ashrel: T1, by Valp - I made a friend on InstaGram last year who is a French comic book artist. I don't know if I can afford to catch up on all her work this year, but at least I've got this to start.

    What I'm Listening To

  • Steven Universe (Soundtrack Vol 1) - along with the single from the latest season.
  • Heart-Shaped Wound, by Aurelio Voltaire - which I forgot I didn't have, and had to order it
  • Year of the Ghost, by Bella Morte - Because they're always flawless friends.
  • Ministry (various albums) - to pep myself up for seeing them in April!

    What I'm Watching
  • Lucifer
  • Another Period (new season!)
  • Steven Universe (frequently binging while it's on hiatus again)
  • Fresh Off the Boat (just today started binging)
  • Ash vs the Evil Dead (just introduced to it this week)
  • Happy (more meh than I thought it'd be - best to binge)

    What I'm Playing
  • Typoman - stuck.
  • Little Nightmares - taking a break
  • Don't Starve Together - waaay too ridiculously hard.
  • Assemblance - casually going through it slowly.

    What I'm Doing

  • Studying eyes in various styles and poses in my sketchbook. Part of a challenge, but a whole month of drawing eyes? Ugh. I'm not loving it. No longer doing it every day.

  • Crocheting a Temperature Blanket!! - one row a day, colour-coded weather colours (ten degree increments). That's about ten or eleven different colours. I've used 6 colours this month alone. It's wild.

  • Drawing in marker and watercolour. First piece of the year is a drawing of my friend Tempest.

    What I'm Thinking

  • Thinking I need to make a will. I had a brief fear for my life when I found myself in the middle of an unnerving situation that could have turned violent, and had spent hours during it writing out my will and letters to friends, all in my head. I haven't done it yet. I haven't even talked about the incident with anyone outside the immediate vicinity of the situation. The situation has been diminished, but there's still the possibility things could go south. I don't even know where to start.

  • Enjoying a new lease on life (aside from the above situation). I shaved the sides of my head. I dyed my hair bright red (except the shaved bits, which I kept black). I have done things that I felt doubtful about, and without regret so far.

  • I've been doing adult things and taking care of some things. Got my first physician in over 15 years (at my first doctor appointment in over 10). Started on some medication that's supposed to help balance my moods, keep me focused, and up my metabolism (not feeling the metabolism, as I gained 5 lbs in a weekend, but maybe it takes more time). Have three referrals for different doctors (ObGyn, Opthalmologist, and Dermatologist). And took care of wrangling my student loans (for now).

    And I think that's it for this month.
    • Current Mood
      okay okay