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I'm trying to convince myself the depression hasn't started creeping back in, but instead am just getting too comfortable in my new-found mental wellness, and it's really LAZINESS setting in.

It could also be that my work schedule has been thrown off balance. I am 9-1 Tuesdays through Fridays, but since they didn't prepare properly for various important workers going on vacations all at once (one for the whole summer), I have nearly doubled my hours to pick up the slack. I'm not allowed to work more than a certain number of hours per week. It doesn't seem like a big jump, but the hours are all over the place.

I had a breakdown of the hours in this spot, but I decided this post might already be boring enough without it ;)

By the time I get home, I'm often wiped out, and have to nap. When I get up, no matter how awake I am, I just don't want to leave the bed for anything. It's too hot in the living room. The bedroom is air-conditioned. And the computer is my tv. No reason to leave. I'm not even eating much anymore (which might also be contributing to my lack of energy).

(edit: confirmed- not eating enough is totally contributing to my lack of energy. Instead of working straight through 9-4, I had a break for lunch, and now I'm home and NOT exhausted! Wooo!)

I've had laundry - clean laundry, which Charles does, piling up on my closet floor for weeks. At this point, they're too wrinkly to even wear on days I'm not working. Yesterday, I finally got to it, and of course, my steamer went on the fritz. But I tried. Got almost everything that needs to be hung up done. I still have a moderate pile of wrinkles that need to be steamed, and folded, and then I'm gold.

Can't let that happen again. I really need to develop the habit of doing things when they should be done.

But the laziness has stunted my violin practice (I go days at a time without touching it). And am uninspired to make jewelry for the convention (I have made a whole bunch, though, so I think I'll be okay).

Maybe, also, it's time to step away from Facebook again, or at least remove it from my phone again. Fucking productivity-vampire.


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Aug. 2nd, 2015 09:18 pm (UTC)
I've done so much as moving it to the bottom of my "social" bookmarks folder... which shockingly helps, because then I'm being conscious of my click. On my phone, I'll close out of it, then brainlessly click to open it again... sometimes a number of times. So I have to throw that to the back or get rid or something...
Aug. 3rd, 2015 02:14 am (UTC)
Just ... *hugs*

And yeah, removing the easy access to certain websites has helped me a lot in the past. Which reminds me that I should start doing it again. Where did my weekend go ...? How is it already Sunday night, I just turned my computer one and it was Friday evening D:
Aug. 3rd, 2015 07:08 pm (UTC)
Yes! It's like weekends go by faster when you have at least one of the days to relax and do nothing important.
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